Day 5

   Well we finished the first full week of chemo. Eric did really well yesterday, we went to chemo for 4 hours got home, he rested for about an hour and it was time to go to the next doctors appointment. We met with the urlogoist for a follow up from his surgery. They are concerned that they did not see a decrease in Eric's tumor markers after surgery, and they are rapidly increasing, so they are now going to do a CT scan on his brain as that is usually the final area that testicular cancer will go to. Eric was pretty out of it while we were there, he was really tired and just had a hard time focusing. They scheduled the scan to be done next Friday, by the time we got him I was frustrated that they would wait so long to do it, so I called and rescheduled it for Tuesday morning.
  I am not really even sure how to react to them wanting to do this. I know it is all just a precaution, but I just can't even begin to imagine if they are to find anything. We keep hoping for good news with everything they have tested and we have yet to have any. So I am really hoping that this will be the first time we can hear something positive and find that his brain looks okay. To add brain surgery into the middle of all of this, just seems like more that I can even begin to think about handling. We will take it as it comes, and if it turns out that is added to us we will find a way to get through, but I am just praying (pleading) that the test will turn out okay.
   The rest of the evening went well. Eric actually started to feel pretty good and stayed up for the rest of the night visiting with us. We walked over to the park and let Kaizen play for a bit, it was nice to get out for a minute as a family. Those are the moments that we are just able to escape from reality and have a moment to just enjoy the simplicity of life. There is nothing quite like walking in the fresh air with the two people you love and seeing a thrill of a young boy as he goes down on his belly on the slide, and laughs as he swings. Those are the moments I live for, to just enjoy my family in such simple setting. Life doesn't get any better than that.
  Today hasn't been as easy on Eric, he has been very tired and has spent most of the day resting. He woke up, came down stairs for a bit and went back up to bed. I was trying to keep Kaizen quiet and entertained as Eric is having a hard time with noises. Then I heard him get up and into the shower, he came downstairs. I told him I was needing to go to the store, and he quickly said lets go to Costco I want a peice of pizza, so thats what we did. It wasn't long for him to regret it! He wound up with major heart burn tonight, so spent some more time resting upstairs. He came down for dinner, but wasn't in much of a mood to eat, so he headed back up to rest.
   Lorene and I were able to sneak out again this afternoon for a little "mom" time. I set up an appointment to go and get pedicures. It was fun to get out and treat Lorene to a little pampering for all of her hard work. So it was a nice couple of hours to relax.